so lets see...been a long time since my last post and i'm not doin to much so why not update a little. well, its been almost a month since surgry and it sucked ass. it was terrible and the first night when i actually woke up and was somewhat with it, it was the worst night ever. besides not sleepin and wakin up about 1 15am i also was throwin up about 5 or 6 times that night/day. it was mostly blood and nothin else. i think it was partly to do with the morphine. even though it helped with the pain it sucked feelin sick like that. but after i got home and a few days went by things started gettin better, but because i had to turn the screws everyday it was really starting to get on my nerves and it was really hurtin so i didn't like that to much. the good news is that today i had to go to the hosiptal for just a post op check up thing and i don't have to turn anymore. now all the time is gonna be for healin and lettin the bone grow back and all that good stuff. that means no more pain really...or at least not a lot. since they said about 6 weeks until i get all the stuff taken out i decided that i am gonna play my last year of soccer so i signed up online today and i'm gonna miss all the way up to the first game at least i think, maybe 2 games...it don't really bother me cause i will get to play the rest of the season. of course i'm kinda hopin i'm on a crappy team so that i don't have to be as serious or play as good as i have in past years. if i'm on a team where everyone knows who i am or a couple of them do they will expect a certain lvl of skill out of me and effort since they know what i can do and i don't really wanna do that. i just wanna play in goal all year if i can but if someone else wants to i have no problem with it, i'm not gonna try to fight it like i use to and have to prove i should start in goal. i'm just gonna step aside and let them in and i will just do what i do up front as a striker. of course i will probly play in a goal a few times at practice at least just so i can get it out of my system.

the good news about school is that i graduated so thats always good and i'm goin to sinclair. the only thing is though is that i'm not sure if i'm gonna go 2 years and transfer out or if i'm gonna go from fall quarter to spring quarter, take the ACT and SAT's during winter and then try to transfer out during summer so i can start somewhere else for the next fall semester/quarter. so i'm debating on what i wanna do. of course if i do good enough to get accepted into a place after winter tests i might take it if i can come up with gettin the money to pay it. if not that i will just go my 2 years at sinclair. but ya...as for the whole sleep thing...before surgry i was actually not doin that bad, after i wasn't doin bad either cause i was takin vicoden all day and it was knockin me out so i was sleepin perdy good. now though it doesn't have the same effect on me and doesn't put me to sleep like it use to and i can't take anything else cause i have nothin else and cause if i take anything less then knock me the fuck out i gotta take about 5 of them and thats not a good thing to do every night. so i'm back to the whole not bein able to sleep at nights. it sucks but i don't have to get up early so thats always good i don't gotta worry about fallin asleep at the wheel or nothin or in class but it just sucks bein up 24/7

i've also bein goin on ebay a lot latly and have been buyin up some stuff. lots of stuff. before that i only bought 1 thing and it was a movie. now since then and since surgry since i can't really go out no where i'm buyin everything onlne i've bought about 4 more movies, 3 cds i think, 2 video games, a watch, and some other stuff. of course the bad thing is that i did a bad over 4th of july and i can't take it back.....i bought another ps2...even though i already got 1 i ended up buyin another one. i don't really know what i was thinkin at the time but its shiny and so i think that i'm gonna make sure it works when it gets here and if it does i will keep it and then just sell my old one somewhere. however at ebgames you get a little extra for trading in the system and i can get $40 for it so i might trade it in now or call and see how long the deal lasts. after all i bought the other ps2 for only $17 and some change...ahh yes, the wonder of ebay...if no one bids then you get some good stuff for very cheap. kinda like an ipod...i almost got one for only $30...new or used you can't get a good one for less then $60 anywhere...probly be hard to find one thats $100 besides the shuffle...but thats really small and not good like ipod video or somethin. i also think i bid on it cause i am one of the only people in america who doesn't have one. kinda like when people don't have a myspace account people wonder how...well when people find out i don't have an ipod its just kinda like a wow expression on their face after.

but thats whats bein goin on in my life...nothin to cool i know, but hopin that about the middle of next month i will have everything done and out and i will be on the soccer field tearin it up for my last year...hope everyone had a great holiday

damn it...i just realized that cause they moved my surgry from 7 30 to 1pm i won't be able to see the opening game of the world cup  

other then that though nothin new except that today was last game of volleyball for this session and i don't think i'm gonna be able to play til third but andrea still wants me to go with her to pass the ball around and stuff and in the weird event someone doesn't show to see if i wanna play. chances are i will but ya know. but we won 2 of 3. ya...lost the second one. not sure what happened there. the ref was really hot though, had her before but it was one game where it was really cold out and we were playin the best team in the league so i was more focused on the game but today since i was fuckin sweatin balls outside i notcied and damn...to bad shes probly in her later 20's if not a little older. not actually sure since you can't really tell to easy now a days peoples age. but ya, thats what happened today. tomorow is the day i finally get my tattoo finished up. excited and at the same time kinda dreding it cause it hurt so bad the last time. it hurt every second while gettin it and and also when i was done for the night the after sting you feel...it really sucked and i couldn't drive right, i was all leaned over the steering wheel like an old man tryin to see. so tomorow won't be 4 hours, only about 2 he said so thats a little better. not actually sure what all hes gotta do. i heard from a lot of people that it looks good the way it is and they were supprised that it wasn't done. i think he might color the face though, or at least the eyes and stuff and probly gonna do the hair and the glow thing around her head. not sure if he gonna finish colorin the dress but if he dont thats fine cause i think it looks cool like it is. but i don't know...not the best thing to be sayin about a tattoo, but i trust him enough now that he will hook me up good. also since i'm a pussy when it comes to piercings i decided that after i get my surgry and i'm done with everything that i'm gonna get my ears piecred. i'm gonna get 2 on top, 1 on bot in one ear and then 2 on the bot in the other. i might get 2 on bot on each side and still get the 2 up top on one though. but ya, then after that no more spending except to pay for my computer and such. but right now since i'm not really workin at the moment i was notified that i need $200 by the end of june. i figured it out and as long as i keep cuttin grass since thats about all i will be able to do for a while that i can get it since i get $40 a week. i already got about $15 in the bank now and by the end of the month even on the week of my surgry i will cut it early in the day, that way i get the money and if i do that i should have about $160 and then the $15 i already got and then i just have to come up with that extra by then. i think i can do it and if i can't then thats gonna be really bad. but ya. i plan on actually gettin a real job after i get the surgry and then when i gotta go back in august i will only be out of things for a day or two that way it won't effect my job at all really. i will also have a head start on my computer. then after i get out of it i will either go full time there or else stay part and then pick up a second.

but thats my thoughts for today and that was a lot longer then i thought but ya...well hope everyone is haven a good day...besides the fact that the air don't workin the house and its even about 70 in the basement things are gonna pretty good.